Don't tell me

An Essay By Bridget // 4/10/2010

Don't tell me I put up a good fight. 
I lost.  Nothing will change that.
Don't tell me I did well.
I didn't.  I failed you, myself, and everyone else.
Don't tell me everything is okay.
Do you think I'm blind?  I know the world isn't perfect.
Don't tell me everything will be fine.
Not everyone gets a happy ending.
I don't want lies, even nice ones.
You can pretend everything is okay.  You can smile and sing and shut your eyes to everything.
It won't fix things.
You can believe in fairytales.
Actually, I believe in fairytales.  The ones like The Little Match Girl, and The Little Mermaid.  The ones that don't always end right.
Don't laugh when I worry that something will go wrong.  You don't know how much it means to me.
As much as it hurts, I just want you to tell me the truth.  The good truth and the bad truth.
The truth about who I am.
The truth about what has happened.
The truth about what is happening.
And as much as you can, the truth about what will happen.
That's what I want.
 

Comments

Sniff

Very sad. You know, I like the Hans Christian Anderson ending of the Little Mermaid better, because she doesn't get one thing she wants--the prince--but there's still a chance of the other--eternity.

I'll be praying for you.

Julie | Mon, 04/19/2010

Formerly Kestrel

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I actually wrote that more than a week ago, when I was feeling really down and hopeless.  Also, I had really messed up with something, which probably had something to do with it.  I'm feeling a lot better now, and I know something of what I'm doing, so I'm okay.  But thanks for praying anyway.

I like his story of the Little Mermaid too.  It bugged me so much when I knew about the movie anding and I found out it was different.

Bridget | Mon, 04/19/2010

"I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then I ask myself the same question." - Harun Yahya

That was really sad, but I

That was really sad, but I liked it. All of your writing is so true and real. You don't hold anything back, and make things seem happy and fake. I wish I could write like that.

Erin | Sat, 05/01/2010

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

<3

Bridget Darling, you are an amazing person! Don't ever let anyone tell you that you are second rate or a failure, because you're not and you never will be! I'm praying for you <3

Ariel | Sat, 05/01/2010

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"To produce a mighty book, you must choose a mighty theme. No great and enduring volume can ever be written on the flea, though many there be that have tried it." -- Herman Melville

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You guys just made me feel so good!  Both of you!  I'll be fine, life is getting very good, and Erin, I'm glad you think my stuff is "real".  That's one of the best compliments I've gotten.

Bridget | Sun, 05/02/2010

"I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then I ask myself the same question." - Harun Yahya

I'm glad you appreciated it

I'm glad you appreciated it so much :) and I'm glad you're feeling better.

Erin | Wed, 05/12/2010

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

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