The Ventriloquist

A Poem By E // 3/5/2013

I. Only wishes

I wish I could express in words
How lovely I think you are
Every time I see your face
I think of Blue
I wonder what would happen
If I just ran my hand across your cheek
When you open your mouth
It’s crooked and perfect
But no matter how lovely
I’ll always know the truth
I’ll know I just can’t take it
I’ll know I can’t take you

II. Gravity

I wish you could explain to me
Why the sky is blue
Or why gravity makes things fall
So hard
And plummet at the speed of sound
Crashing into the rocky earth
I am like a bird who cannot fly.

III. Classier Times

Kisses used to be such a secret
They were filled with giggles
With wide eyed girls
With boys who tried to be cool
In the days of pomade and shiny cars
Of poodle skirts and curly hair

IV. The Falsest Truths

Your words are making ribbons in the air and turning it to the color of smoke, smoke that is choking me out and I can’t breathe. What have I become to you? Am I just another piece in these sick games you play? You’re grabbing my hand and telling me sorry, but why don’t I believe you? Your skin feels so good on mine but I know that this is how it was going to end and all you’re going to do is make me hurt.

V. The Collector

Are you a collector, by chance?
Because you seem to pick up hearts wherever you walk
Are you a lover, by chance?
You move with the air of someone who knows what they want
Are you thinking of someone, by chance?
Because I can think of someone who is thinking of you.

VI. Random Line

My mind is a glass bowl, filled with words left unsaid.

VII. Casual Tragedy

You say things so casually
Just toss them in the air
You’re too infuriatingly oblivious
To see the effect you have on me
I guess I understand
Age is more than just a number

VIII. Quenched

A question is bubbling
At the surface of my lips
It wants to burst out, to ask you what you think
But for now I have to swallow it down
And leave it unasked indefinitely

IX. Confusion

I’m looking at you and I’m seeing sparks fly off your skin, I think you’re glowing I don’t understand why I have to like you so much because you’re too far out of my league, not to mention that you’re twenty-two and I’m seventeen and that’s just creepy but is it really? Because I feel like it could work in a few years I’ll be twenty and you’ll be twenty five and then maybe it would be okay? But of course by then you’ll probably be married to her and she’s really lovely and beautiful and sweet and funny and a saint and I could never be that for you, no matter how much I want to I’ll always be awkward and laugh too hard at cheesy jokes and blush every time you talk to me directly and feel like I’ll never be good enough because you’re just so perfect and I can’t live with or without you because now if I stopped I would miss you but spending so much time around you is making me crazy and sad and I just don’t know what to do with myself when you lay those blue eyes on me and laugh.

XI. Everything, Ocean, Love

Loss hits gently like the ocean in your eyes, lapping against the golden shore so close to me. Butterflies are dying in my stomach, this won’t last, sweet mint breaths spill from your smile. It feels like an earthquake trembling rotation world is happening too close. I’m scared yet alive, I can’t do this, cologne dying loss gentle smile nervous kisses. Spilling over I want so badly rough warmth fingers. Why all the pain short breaths crooked smile soft heat alive. I can’t stay here when I can wonder steps so close, everything, ocean, love.

XII. The Ventriloquist

Down I go again, this never ending spiral
Even though I should know by now that this will never work
You’re a ventriloquist, and I’m just a puppet in your hands
Built to repeat what’s in your head
Nevermind what I have to say

XIII. When the Stars Align

Is there someone else on the outside, who can teach me how to breathe
This air is getting thicker, the moon is getting brighter
I feel you with every heartbeat, my thoughts revolve around your ocean eyes
The stars are aligning, baby, and they’re spelling out your name.


I loved The Collector,

I loved The Collector, especially the last line. And Classier Times was cute.

I’ll always be awkward and laugh too hard at cheesy jokes and blush every time you talk to me directly

Great line, so relatable.

And THIS. Possibly my favorite line out of all this poetry:

sweet mint breaths spill from your smile

It's SO vivid. I can completely picture it. Like, how creative of you! And brilliant! ahhh! I love it!

Great job, Erin! No worries on the angsty poetry. :P It's the majority of what I write as well, for whatever reason. It's just easier for me to tell a story in a poem if it's about love or yearning or whatnot. LOL!

-Homey :D

Madeline | Tue, 03/05/2013

everything was better when/you would call and I'd be like/yeah babe, no way

Thank you so much!!! I

Thank you so much!!! I appreciate it. I'm just glad that I'm actually able to write something, because for a while, literally everything I wrote was poop. LOL

E | Tue, 03/05/2013

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond


I think I liked 'Gravity' and 'Confusion' the best. In 'Confusion', I love how you just poured out the words, like you were thinking them and trying to sort through them all at the same time. It felt so beautiful and raw, and I can totally relate. :)

And I happen to like angsty poetry. It means something.

Great job!

little woman | Sat, 03/09/2013

The most astonishing thing about miracles is that they happen.
-G. K. Chesterton

Thank you so much! I

Thank you so much! I admittedly, I also tend to enjoy angsty poetry. I was just hoping that I wasn't overwhelming everybody with it. Lol. Anyway, I appreciate your comment!

E | Sat, 03/09/2013

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

Great style!

Love how you switched from verse to free form...very much the pattern of love in the mind!!
I LOVED "Classier Times" and "Random Line" and "butterflies are dying in my stomach".
Well done!!

Sarah Bethany | Sun, 03/10/2013

Thank you, I appreciate it!

Thank you, I appreciate it!

E | Sun, 03/10/2013

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond


I wanted to read this yesterday, but I'm glad I read it today (while it's finally peaceful in my house :P).
I enjoyed this a lot. It definitely wasn't a relaxed set of poetry. Some poems are sort of... would you understand if I said "sleepy?" Like... the poetry rhymes and it's just easy to follow that your more like drifting than reading?

This was definitely not "sleepy" poetry. It was a little difficult to read at times, but it was also a challenge brain-wise. It made me think and ponder the meaning of each. The lines were complex, which was both hard for me but also enjoyable. All of them were really well done. Creative and just... Philosophical... LOL! Do you know what I mean? It was deep and had really great meaning. I loved "My mind is a glass bowl, filled with words left unsaid." FAB! I also liked the Butterflies dying line.

I wouldn't be able to tell you which one was my favorite,I have quite a few. But I did like the Collector A LOT! It was really good.

So... LOL! I'm reading over my comment. This could be read in a harsh way, but please, please, all of this was meant as a compliment!! It is REALLY well done!

Kassady | Mon, 03/11/2013

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
Write On!

Thank you! It was hard for me

Thank you! It was hard for me to follow, because I was literally just writing what came to my head, so I'm not suprised that it was a challenge for others, too. I appreciate your comment!! P.S. Also, I LOVE LOVE LOVE that you said that you really had to think about each line. It makes me very happy. So, thank you!!

E | Mon, 03/11/2013

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

Goodness, this is

Goodness, this is beautiful...I love it! I guess I'm into angst-y poetry... :)

Flying Past Clouds | Wed, 06/12/2013

Thank you so much!

Thank you so much!

E | Wed, 06/12/2013

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond


Hey, I'm back!

Wow....I really like this style. The rthym of Only Wishes is so good, and I can relate. I think Classier Times could be expanded and more effective, but hey, that's my opinion. I love Random Line!!! I don't know, I just really like it...maybe cos it describes my own head only too well.
Quenched is nice. I like "A question is bubbling"'s just nice.
And Confusion...LOVE it! It's just flowly and exactly describes the feeling behind it so nicely.
Oh, these are just so good...glad you're not that depressing in real life though....that would be a bummer!

Maddi | Thu, 08/01/2013

Goodbye? Oh no, please. Can’t we just go back to page one and start all over again?” – Winnie The Pooh

Thank you! And glad you're

Thank you! And glad you're back :)

E | Thu, 08/01/2013

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond


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