Content to Struggle

A Poem By Libby // 7/23/2018

It’s hard for me to say
Or describe what I feel
Though I’m physically better,
It does take time to heal.

It all began with me
And a thoughtless inspiration
Which caused an injury
And cut off my respiration.

On Thursday night, I flew
To a hospital to stay
But I don’t remember much,
You see, they knocked me out that day.

I woke on Friday evening,
And wondered where I lay
And when I understood my plight
I then began to pray.

When Sunday came, I breathed a sigh
For they had discharged me
And I was welcomed home with joy
Yes, I was finally free!

But though the Lord heals quickly,
It is hard to be content
With life the way I live it now
So full of such dissent.

Please don’t get me wrong, my friend,
It’s not a fam’ly fight—
It’s the discord going on in me
That makes me so uptight.

I struggle in my heart
As I think of everything
That I cannot do this year
Though I planned such frolicking.

I cannot run, I cannot jump,
I cannot even dance—
Depressing, right? It makes me see
My summer at a glance:

“No reading books for longer times,
No looking at a screen;
Such things will give your head an ache,
As nice as they may seem.

“It's only for your good, my dear,
So just sit back and rest;
Get bored, be glum—just don’t do much—
My dear, it’s for the best.”

Inside, my heart rebels,
For I cannot stand restraints;
My mind is overwhelmed,
Filled with dozens of complaints.

At points I say I’m happy
And I actually think it, too;
But always deep inside
I feel a hurt that’s all too true.

And then one day I told a friend,
“My life is very sad.”
But soon after, I realized
Life’s really not so bad.

When did it start to change?
I hardly know at all.
But I’ve been growing different
Ever since I took that fall.

Amazed, I look at life anew
Perspectives changed around
Now I can see new purpose
In my life, new worth I’ve found.

My God has used my injury
For purposes his own
And now I see his hand at work
In countless ways unknown.

His peace lives on inside my heart
And from his Word of power,
I’m learning how to be content,
And smile each precious hour.

I am content to struggle,
For each struggle teaches me
That God can work out beauty
Even through this injury.

Comments

Libby, this is so well done!

Libby, this is so well done! So raw and sweet and thoughtful and true.

I am praying for you as you continue to heal. Feel free to call me any time you’re feeling particularly bored and I will try my best to cheer you up and remind you of all the reasons God has given you to smile. I love you, my sweet friend!

Damaris Ann | Mon, 07/23/2018

I don’t thrive off of chaos: chaos thrives off of me.

Libby, this is so beautiful...

... and I'm so glad that you are well enough to still write, even though you don't get much screen time. I really like how you've captured your thoughts and struggles so well with simple meter and rhyme.

I've been praying for you. I know God is doing something truly beautiful in your life right now. Keep resting, dear cousin. :)

James | Mon, 07/23/2018

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"The idea that we should approach science without a philosophy is itself a philosophy... and a bad one, because it is self-refuting." -- Dr. Jason Lisle

Awesome job!

Awesome job, Libby! This is really well-written! And I'll continue keeping you in my prayers!

Grace J. | Mon, 07/23/2018

“You are doing something great with your life—when you are doing all the small things with His great love.” - Ann Voskamp

Thank you all so much for

Thank you all so much for your sweet comments and your prayers. I just added the last stanza, which unfortunately, I forgot to stick in last night. :P And the poem's even named because of it!
Anyways, thank you all. Everything you said means so much to me!

Libby | Mon, 07/23/2018

“The gospel alone is the power of God unto salvation.
Therefore, suffer, yes. Be misunderstood, yes. Be shamed, yes. But do not be ashamed. For the joy set before you, take up your cross, follow Jesus, be shamed and despise the shame!" -- John Piper

This is so well written

This is so well written Libby! Such a good reminder to us all that we can still find joy through our God even when we are struggling! I'm glad you are feeling better. I will continue to keep you in my prayers!

Joy J. | Mon, 07/23/2018

C.H. Spurgeon - "God’s mercy is so great that you may sooner drain the sea of its water, or deprive the sun of its light, or make space too narrow, than diminish the great mercy of God. "

Good job, Libby! Rejoice in

Good job, Libby!
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:4-7

Jill Levine Tyler | Tue, 07/24/2018

Jill L. Tyler

Trust in the Lord with all your heart

I am so sorry this happened

I am so sorry this happened to you and hope you have a rapid recovery! Of course my prayers are with you too. I'm so glad you took to write this poem - so charmingly written and composed. :) Especially love the last two stanzas. :)

Hannah D. | Tue, 07/24/2018

"Reason itself is a matter of faith. It is an act of faith to assert that our thoughts have any relation to reality at all." - G. K. Chesterton

:)

Thank you very much for all your prayers. My recovery has been going so much more quickly than we have expected. Our God truly is great, and he really does listen to prayers, so thank you!
Also, Philippians 4:4-7 is such a powerful reminder and reassurance. Thank you for that, Jill.

Libby | Tue, 07/24/2018

“The gospel alone is the power of God unto salvation.
Therefore, suffer, yes. Be misunderstood, yes. Be shamed, yes. But do not be ashamed. For the joy set before you, take up your cross, follow Jesus, be shamed and despise the shame!" -- John Piper

Miss You!!

Injuries sure can be a problem, can't they? If I were you, I would spend all my time outdoors, gazing off into the distance, listening to music, and writing poetry. (Really! scientific studies have shown that doing things like that are good for your brain! this way, your head might heal faster.) Love ya!

SURPRISINGPERSON | Sat, 08/04/2018

Liana Wood

:)

Thank you, Liana - I miss you too! Frankly, I can't spend all my time outdoors, gazing off into the distance, but I am listening to music plenty and, as you can guess, I have been busy with poetry. Thank you for you sweet comment! :) I love you, too. ;)

Libby | Mon, 08/06/2018

“The gospel alone is the power of God unto salvation.
Therefore, suffer, yes. Be misunderstood, yes. Be shamed, yes. But do not be ashamed. For the joy set before you, take up your cross, follow Jesus, be shamed and despise the shame!" -- John Piper