Ten Wonderful Years

Dear friends,

apricotpie has existed for 10 wonderful years. We have met people through this website, formed friendships, and I think one of us even found a future spouse partially through apricotpie. We used this place as a staging ground for our thoughts, our poems, and our stories. Writing for apricotpie became an extra challenge to solidify our ideas and purify our prose (or poetry) before revealing it to the community. We took it seriously even though it has a goofy name.

So it is with a sense of our collective accomplishment these past 10 years that I announce apricotpie will be closing its doors at the end of October 2010.

I am more busy(er) than ever before. I am now in graduate school studying Theology at the Franciscan University of Steubenville. I am also holding a part-time job in web development. If before I found it difficult to keep up with admitting new members, moderating posts and comments, and reading your writing; now it will be virtually impossible. In all fairness to you and to me, I think it is time to call it quits. Perhaps you could start a new website!

Thank you, all of you who helped me begin apricotpie and helped me run it over the years: the Maloney family, the Dick family, Shane, Claire, Naomi, James, Peter, my own Kniaz family. And thank you, all of you who became monthly writers: Aisling, Amanda, Amy, Anna, Ariel, Beatrice, Bernadette, Brianna, Caitlyn, Christa, Claire, Clare Marie, Elizabeth, Erin, Ezra, Gary, Hannah W, Heather, James, Jenny, Julesyim, KatieSara, Keri T, Kyleigh, LoriAnn, Mairead, Mary, Matthew, Naomi, Nikki, Paul, Raen, Raine, Roxanna, Sarah, Sarah Bethany, Shane, Tamerah, Taylor, and Timothy.

Looking over all of your names I know what talented, interesting, exciting, important people you are. And there are so many writers on apricotpie who I have not even named!

apricotpie will be fully running until November 1st.


Ben Kniaz


Hey, question

Will the already-posted things remain up or not?

Julie | Mon, 10/18/2010

Formerly Kestrel

Thank you so much, Ben!

I just read the news, and I'm very sad to hear it. Apricotpie has been a wonderful outlet and experience. It's really neat that such a simple idea bred such a neat community. Apricotpie was an integral part of my homeschool experience. It helped me to hone my skills, and especially to realize how much I needed to work on my writing. I've carried a  lot of what I've learned into college - thanks to this beautiful site. I've met a lot of wonderful people, and I've even been able to introduce people to homeschooling through Apricotpie.

Ben, you've been encouraging and helpful to me personally through this website. It really means a lot to have outlets like this as a homeschooler. Thank you so much! If there is any way that we can help this website to continue, please let us know!



Gary | Mon, 10/18/2010

 Thank you Ben for creating

 Thank you Ben for creating and running Apricotpie! I've really enjoyed everything about it, and will miss both the writing and the writers very much! May God bless your years ahead!


Teal | Sat, 10/16/2010

Thanks Ben. Now I feel that

Thanks Ben. Now I feel that I can just enjoy Apricotpie, now that The Apricotpie Outpost will be waiting for us afterwards, so that we can all connect.

It's been a great almost two years :)

Anonymous | Tue, 09/21/2010

good times

Thank you Ben for everything. I am very grateful; It was wonderful for the time that it lasted. :)

Brianna | Tue, 09/21/2010

"We have been created for greater things. Why stoop down to things that will spoil the beauty of our hearts?" ~Mother Theresa

Sunday evening response

Hi all,

Thanks for all your emails and comments. It warms my heart to feel that I am part of this community!

I've received several offers to help moderate the site or in general to help lead apricotpie. My response is that for apricotpie to continue beyond October I would need to be able to pass on the leadership to new people entirely. This would include leading the site, giving it direction, covering the hosting cost, and being able to fix or add new areas to the site.

If anyone can do all these things, then it seems to me that this person or group of people might be more excited about starting a new website.


Ben | Sun, 09/19/2010

If I had income, I could say something more helpful than this.

The chief difficulty in making a new site is losing ten years of content.

Anna | Mon, 09/20/2010

I have hated the words and I have loved them, and I hope I have made them right. --The Book Thief


That is how I feel about it...

...even if all apricotpie users were able to post all their previous postings to a new site (which would be quite a feat), the comments and the history of our interaction with eachother would be lost.

James | Mon, 09/20/2010

"The idea that we should approach science without a philosophy is itself a philosophy... and a bad one, because it is self-refuting." -- Dr. Jason Lisle

Congratulations, Kestrel!!

Congratulations, Kestrel!!

E | Sun, 09/19/2010

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond


I've been meaning to get around to actually posting something or commenting on here for a long while...and so this has come as a shock and a sort of wake-up call.  It's so sad that Apricotpie will be no more! 

I want to say that Ben deserves more thanks than we can give him.  Thank you so much, Ben, for creating and running this beautiful website for so many years!!  From talking to the people who are part of this, and reading their work, I think I can safely say that AP has been home to each and every one of us.  I would never be the writer I am now if it weren't for Apricotpie; it has been, in a sense, a crutch to help me hobble along in the writing world.  Maybe it's time for me to let go of the crutch and try to walk on two legs!

I, for one, would be more happy than words could tell if someone were able to keep Apricotpie running; however, I know next to nothing about computers so I don't know the complications involved with starting/running a website.  Perhaps, if a website proves to be too much trouble, we could start a blog?  It would be essentially the same set-up, and easy enough that even technically-challenged people like me could take part in running it.  Just my suggestion. :)

Ben, again I want to tell you 'thank you' for giving us Apricotpie.  I think you're a hero to all of us!!

God bless everyone, and may He continue to guide your pens!!!

Clare Marie | Sun, 09/19/2010

"I don't know half of you half as well as I should like; and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve." -Bilbo Baggins [The Lord of the Rings]

My Statement

First, thank you Ben, for creating this site and maintaining it these past ten years.  And thankyou for giving me the priviledge of being a monthly writer.  Even though I have only been a part of it for the past three years, I feel very much at home here.  I have deeply appreciated being able to write things -- poems, essays, fiction -- and share them with other homeschoolers.  In many ways it's been like an extended family.  I'm going to miss this place.

I would have posted earlier, but I received the news right before I left for a retreat up in the woods at my grandparents' cabin, and had no time to respond (other than a private email) until now.  The whole retreat, my mind was distracted as to the fate of Apricotpie.

This is my statement.  I do not know how to make websites; I've had some experience using html and css to customize the look of my blog, but beyond that nothing really.  Yet, I will step up and do whatever I can -- I'll learn how to do new things if I have to.  If there is any possiblity to save Apricotpie, I'll help however I can.  And if there is not, I'll do whatever I can to help start a new website and keep the Apricotpie community together.

James | Sun, 09/19/2010

"The idea that we should approach science without a philosophy is itself a philosophy... and a bad one, because it is self-refuting." -- Dr. Jason Lisle

I thought most of you would

I thought most of you would like to know this, even though it's not directly related--

I learned this week that my first story is going to be published--and I get paid for it.  In a way, I'll think of it as a tribute to this site.

Julie | Sat, 09/18/2010

Formerly Kestrel


I am very pleased to hear the news.

What is the name of your work?  And where can I purchase a copy?

James | Thu, 09/23/2010

"The idea that we should approach science without a philosophy is itself a philosophy... and a bad one, because it is self-refuting." -- Dr. Jason Lisle

It's The Heartsmith...which

It's The Heartsmith...which is actually up on here. It's an online magazine, so look here http://www.mindflights.com/

Julie | Thu, 09/23/2010

Formerly Kestrel

Congratulations, Kestrel! 

Congratulations, Kestrel!  :-D

Bridget | Thu, 09/23/2010

"I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then I ask myself the same question." - Harun Yahya

I would just like to point out...

I am so not surprised that you're getting published.

Anna | Mon, 09/20/2010

I have hated the words and I have loved them, and I hope I have made them right. --The Book Thief

An author who makes money?

An author who makes money? Who would have thought?

That's wonderful, Kestrel--congratulations! :)

Annabel | Sat, 09/18/2010

I agree...

I completely agree. Although I respect Ben's decision, there has to be some way we can resolve this without the result of AP shutting down. Can't we do anything about it? There must be some way...

Madeline | Sat, 09/18/2010

With all due respect, Timothy...

I wholeheartedly disagree.

I understand Ben's reasoning. I also understand, better than some, that life is not fair. Things happen that you can't control and you need to accept them with grace. This is not one of those things.

 I love this place. I may not comment or post very often, but I read, and you don't find stuff like this on ANY other website. At least, not that I've ever seen.

And I have absolutely no intention of bidding AP a fond farewell until I've exhausted every possible solution.

Life isn't fair. Things happen that you don't like. That doesn't mean you can't fight for anything, and I intend to fight for Apricot Pie.

I'm not going to fight Ben, but I will fight for this place. Even if I'm fighting alone.

jemiteaser | Sat, 09/18/2010


A hero is a hero, but everyone loves a great villain - Ferb

the legacy....

ditto to Hannah W. it came like a shock.

        I'm sad Apricotpie is closing, but I support Ben's discision. this has been a wonderful place, if  I didn't have this, I probally would't have really gotten started on writing.....it would have taken me longer. thank you Ben so much! I will be missing a lot......everything.

Bernadette | Fri, 09/17/2010

many, many thanks

     I am very sad that this is closing! Apricotpie has been such a beautiful, wonderful, place for homeschoolers! I am soo thankful for all the work you put in this website, Ben. I really, loved it! I am just so grateful....

      There has been so much love and peace on this website. It has been so homey.... I will miss the colours, the set-up, the comment-board, the writers.... I am so sad...

     Keep writing, homeschoolers! Spread the light around!

       May God Bless you and give you His peace!


Elizabeth | Fri, 09/17/2010


The Holy Spirit is the quiet guest of our soul." -St. Augustine

I'll add my voice to the chorus :)

Thank you Ben, for apricotpie. When I needed a creative outlet to distract me from all the non-creative parts of my life, AP made a huge difference. It encouraged me to write for me and me alone, in a wonderfuly supportive atmosphere. You have my thanks and gratitude for your creativity in the design and creation of the website, the leadership that created the atmosphere, and the thoughtfulness you've shown in listening to (and asking for!) our suggestions for improving AP and acting upon them. Not to mention your writing pieces were always thought provoking and fun to read.

Thank you to all the other writers in AP as well - I can say that whenever a monthly writer contributed, I always read with interest and appreciation. I always particularly enjoyed Timothy's poetry and interesting story twists, Aisling's beautiful idioms, and James's thought-provoking essays and poems. Amy and Ezra, I shall forever wonder what happens next in Miriam's and Ellyra's stories. Nikki, Raine, Roxanne, Shane, Tamerah, Bernadette & Taylor, your poetry continually delighted me and I always looked forward to your next post. Kyleigh, your stories inspired me and Brianna I shall forever be grateful to you for inspiring one of my favorite poems. Sarah, your poetry and your life is truly inspirational. I know I'm forgetting people, there's so much wonderful stuff here at AP, and I loved reading it all.

Most of all, thanks for reading my (fairly poor!) writing, and giving my feedback and encouragement and support. I was so delighted when Ben asked me to become a monthly writer, although I've done a poor job of it lately. I don't think you'll ever know how much it meant (and means) to me.

From the bottom of my heart, you all have my thanks.

Christa | Fri, 09/17/2010


 My stomach literally dropped when I read that. This is so sad! Isn't there something we can do to keep this going? I understand you have to pay for something like this, but why don't we ask one of the people that have been on here for awhile to maybe start, I don't know, a free google group or something to continue it? This is unbelieveably sad. I've only been on here a few months, but Apricotpie has been so, so important to me. It's improved my writing emmensly and I've enjoyed so many other stories on here because of it. 

I'd just hate to see something like this end...


I can't express how important AP has been to me. And if we can't continue something like this. thank you so much! 

Madeline | Fri, 09/17/2010

Thank you Ben!

Thanks so much, Ben, for everything you have done for Apricotpie! AP was one of the reasons we continued homeschooling when the doubts came- I'd cringe at the thought of AP being here and my not being able to write on it! Its truly motivated me to write more, and I think you did a fantastic job. I'm sad that it will be closing now, but, honestly, I don't know how you ever found time to monitor this site in the first place. I would find that hard to do, and I'm only in high school!

As to AP continuing, I think its a great idea that we continue this website, or start another. I know some people that design websites, if we were going to create a new one, but I would love to keep this one- its got such a nice format.

I believe there's enough of us here that we could find a way to continue on writing for this sort of community, in this sort of enviroment, it just may take a little extra work. =D


Sar | Fri, 09/17/2010

Guys, bear in mind that the

Guys, bear in mind that the web hosting for this site isn't free. If Ben can't run it anymore, then we certainly can't expect him to pay for it either. And he may not want the Apricot Pie name to continue without him. I will miss this site immensely, especially as somebody who has a pretty long history with it now. But we need to respect Ben's decision and not send off AP with anger or disappointment. Just a thought. :)

Timothy | Thu, 09/16/2010

Thank you!

I have not been on AP long but I still love it. Thank you!!! for doing this for 10 years it had to have been hard.

i hope someone can take over this website or start a new one. Thank you to everyone who wrote I loved reading them and hoped to have finished them all.


Anonymous | Thu, 09/16/2010

Ben: Thank you. Thank you

Ben: Thank you.

Thank you for starting this website and taking care of it for 10 years.

Without Apricotpie, I would never have had the courage to put my writing out there for the world to see. I've formed lasting friendships here, and have been greatly blessed in many ways. I'm going to miss Apricotpie a LOT. The community, the fellowship, the critique...wow. A little piece of my heart breaks every time I think about Apricotpie being gone.

I understand, as much as I'm able, why you decided to close it down. That doesn't mean I'm very happy about it! :0) However, just know that if you do decide to turn it over to someone else, I'd be very willing to help moderate. I'd like to see AP stick around for my kids, for generations.

We built a wonderful thing here, everyone. Even if we don't get another site going, remember what you've learned here. What you've become here. Keep honing that. Let's visit each other on blogs and however else we can. Keep writing! There's enough good stuff here that we homeschoolers could take over the world of writing if we wanted to! :0)

Heather | Thu, 09/16/2010

And now our hearts will beat in time/You say I am yours and you are mine...
Michelle Tumes, "There Goes My Love"

I've kind of been stewing

I've kind of been stewing over this since my comment last night, and then I came on here and read Anna's comment and it basically mirrored a lot of my thoughts. I think that if we can't come together and somehow devise a way to keep Apricotpie going we should as a community move to another website where we can all keep in touch with each other and our writings. We wouldn't be able to recruit new members, but it would at least still keep all of us together. And making another website is a good thought in theory, but websites cost money to make, not to mention the time and effort that goes into the creating of it, and I don't know if anyone on here can really afford either of those. I don't know, I'm kind of just putting my thoughts out there. I don't think we should give up without a fight.

Tamerah | Thu, 09/16/2010

Do you think Ben would be

Do you think Ben would be willing to hand this site over to us? With a few of us as moderators--you Anna and Sarah seem interested, and I, though I know next to nothing about computers, would at least be willing to dedicate time to moderating the posts--we might be able to keep apricotpie running much the way it has...

I think we should try.

Annabel | Thu, 09/16/2010

I'd be willing to help too

I'd be willing to help too - I don't know much about this stuff, but I can certainly learn, and I really don't want this place to go.

Bridget | Thu, 09/16/2010

"I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then I ask myself the same question." - Harun Yahya


Firstly, I want to thank you, Ben, from the bottom of my heart for putting this site together for us all. And thank you even more for keeping it running for ten whole years! For handling all of our difficulties and problems and offering suggestion and commentary when needed, and for making things so simple and beautiful and comfortable for us here on AP. You should feel very proud that you have allowed thousands of eager writers full of creativity and light, spirit, life, and imagination share and unite here. This site has been so special to me for the years that I have been involved in it, and I will never forget all of the amazing posts that I have read and the friends that have shared their talents with me, and encouraged me to continue with my writings.
Apricotpie has been, for me personally, an outpouring of deep feelings and thoughts...things that I couldn't otherwise express and process, it has helped me to grow into who I am and find that there are beautiful and amazing people out there who think as I do and share our homeschooling in common. It has been everything, and so much more. I'm sure others could say the same.
I love you all and also, want to encourage you to keep writing and forever remember the dearness of Apricotpie.
I know for me it will be something that will forever remain a piece of me.

Mairead | Thu, 09/16/2010


"Sweet is the love that never knew a wound, but deeper that which died and rose again." - Mother Mary Francis


I am currently in agreement with you. I would love it if someone would take it over--I would do it but 1: I have no clue how to make a website and keep it fully functioning and 2: I have ZERO time.

So will somebody perhaps possibly volunteer??? Maybe???

E | Thu, 09/16/2010

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

Let me have my melodrama

I just experienced a dear friend slamming their door in my face, breaking my heart, and dying all at once. Anger doesn't cover what I'm feeling; sadness doesn't cover it...

I love this place, but I am not feeling particularly thankful. Ten years isn't nearly enough... I've not even had three. I do not want to go out with a bang; I want to keep banging for years to come.

Will we be able to read what's already posted? There are so many unfinished stories... There's more to see than can ever be seen, there's far too much to take in here before the end of October. Oh, wait... Sorry, that's Lion King, but the point still stands. I'm not ready to let this website go.

Can someone else take over administration? Doesn't anyone want to step up and fight for the site? 

Anna | Thu, 09/16/2010

I have hated the words and I have loved them, and I hope I have made them right. --The Book Thief


Ben how could you?!  Can't you just pass it on to some one else? AP is my outlet to the world!!! this is how I share my thoughts, and get new ones!

I am Nate-Dude | Thu, 09/16/2010


No You Can't!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! * sobbing* Why can't you get some one else to do your work? You could trasfer imforation!




* sigh*

I guess my mom could make a site, shes pretty good at that, if things have too go in that direction.... *Tears falling onto key board*

I don't want to say farwell !

But thank you for making this site for us authors , please don't let it be the end! I hope and wish this will not be the end of this wonderful place full of wonderful people and wonderful writting. I don't know if I could live without the knowlegde  that i have somewhere to express my craziness and somewhere that I can share my heart and soul. Please let this not be the end.

I love this site!



Kassady | Thu, 09/16/2010

"Here's looking at you, Kid"
Write On!


Wow. This came as sort of a shock. I am so sad to hear that AP will be gone... If I hadn't had it, I don't think I would have come so far with poems and short stories-- things I didn't even consider writing until I came here.
Right now I'm really worried about losing all the stuff I have posted. How long is that going to stay up? I think I will copy/paste it all somewhere safe now...
Now I feel horrible guilt that I have not finished White Funeral sooner.

Hannah W. | Thu, 09/16/2010

thank you

 Thank you so much, friend, for the gift this website has been. I'll miss it dearly, but I hope--and I encourage my fellow writers to help make this a reality--that was has begun here will continue far on into the lives of all of us who have been moved, challenged, and supported by this apricotpie site and its vision. Keep up the good work, writers! :)

Aisling | Thu, 09/16/2010

thank you

 Thank you so much, friend, for the gift this website has been. I'll miss it dearly, but I hope--and I encourage my fellow writers to help make this a reality--that was has begun here will continue far on into the lives of all of us who have been moved, challenged, and supported by this apricotpie site and its vision. Keep up the good work, writers! :)

Aisling | Thu, 09/16/2010

I'm sorry to hear about it....

  I'm sorry to hear about it, Ben...when my sister found out about this, I was so upset my dad thought that I sounded grumbly!

  I'll be sorry to see this place go!

 I wish I could have been on longer!

Jackie West | Thu, 09/16/2010

I know I haven't been on here

I know I haven't been on here much in recent months, but I am so incredibly sad to hear this. If it weren't for Apricotpie I never would have thought of writing. It was because of Apricotpie that I wrote my first actual poem, and I've come so far since 2007. And if it weren't for all the great people on here who've always accepted me with such kindness and support I wouldn't have continued writing after I started. I'll be very sad indeed to see this place go.

Tamerah | Thu, 09/16/2010

Oh.  Wow.  I'll miss this

Oh.  Wow.  I'll miss this place.  I've been writing here a little more than a year, and I know people say you can't make close internet friends, but I have, both here and on the message board.  I've liked writing for this site, and maybe my writing hasn't always been the best, and maybe it hasn't even improved so much, but I still liked doing it and I liked reading other people's stuff, and I'll miss it.  I'll miss the people, and I'll miss the stories, and I'll miss the feeling I got being here.

I have a couple of questions though, in addition to the ones that Kestrel and Raine posted.
1. Is this site ever going to come back?
2. Will the message board stay up?


Bridget | Thu, 09/16/2010

"I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then I ask myself the same question." - Harun Yahya


I'm very sad, but I guess it had to come someday. I'll miss Apricotpie lots - reading other good stuff, having "accountability" to get writing done, getting help to fix up my writing...

I'm thankful for the many people here, and the many ways I've grown through AP - whether gaining a thicker skin from critique, learning more about writing, and being encouraged and challenged by others' writing.
AP has been a blessing. 
Thank you, Ben.

Kyleigh | Thu, 09/16/2010


Just like Narnia, all good things must come to an end...

Thank you for all that you put into the site, Ben. I feel ashamed that I've nelected everyone here for the past few monthes. I never thought I'd ever have to really say goodbye to Apricot Pie. <3

Ariel | Thu, 09/16/2010

"To produce a mighty book, you must choose a mighty theme. No great and enduring volume can ever be written on the flea, though many there be that have tried it." -- Herman Melville


 I never really realized how much of a home this has become for me. Even if I wasn't super active, it was where I began learning about me. And... like an old friend. Even if you didn't see them all the time, you knew in the back of your mind, if you had to, they were still there... I'm going to miss this a lot....

Anonymous | Thu, 09/16/2010

So many stories I'll never

So many stories I'll never know the ends to now...I've only been a member for a little while, but I'll miss the wonderful stories that made me excited when I saw there'd been another chapter posted and the poems that made me laugh and think.

I'm grateful this place existed, even if only for a little while. Thank  you, Ben and everyone else on apricotpie.

Leandra | Thu, 09/16/2010

 I am so thankful to you,

 I am so thankful to you, Ben, for providing us ex-/homeschoolers with a platform to share our thoughts and creations. When I graduated in '05 I could not have imagined how the Web would connect me to so many in the homeschooling community. apricotpie means a lot to me; I'm very sad to see it 'close', but the friends I've made more than make up for it. My writing is now mostly confined to the corporate world, but I will never forget my first little creations posted on ap. God bless.

julesyim | Wed, 09/15/2010

How can it be???

First of all: 

I'm so sad. I almost cried when I saw this post! 

Second of all:

Thank you SO MUCH for the two years I have been on here. It's really helped me grow in my writing, and I've so enjoyed others. I feel sorry for all the people who just joined, who won't be able to see just how wonderful this website really is. Who thought that a place made up of little pixels would feel so much like home?

Third of all:

 I think I'll save all my favorite posts to a Word document.



E | Wed, 09/15/2010

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

This is unexpected and

This is unexpected and expected at the same time. Either way, I know I will strongly miss Apricot Pie. The people I have met on here and the things I have read hold a deeply special place in my heart. So many times as an awkward teenager trying to be a writer, I knew I could just come on here and put something up and be treated with respect and kindness. If I ever write anything worth reading, it will be because of this site.

Timothy | Wed, 09/15/2010

I didn't think this day would come!

Thank you so much, Ben, for all those years... for getting the idea in the first place, for pioneering it, and then for sticking it out - carrying the website through tough spots and all the unseen technical bumps in the road. I think you put way more time, effort, and energy into it than we realized... so THANK YOU! I'm grateful in ways I can't express.

...I think we can all agree - there is beauty here that is eternal, in myriad ways.

Sarah Bethany | Wed, 09/15/2010

What...are the already posted

What...are the already posted pieces going to stay up?

I'm sad.

This is going to be worth a post or two.

Julie | Wed, 09/15/2010

Formerly Kestrel


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