Publishing a poetry book and chose this poem to be in it! Wish me luck, friends! :")
When you feel like you are a disappointment to God, and have to watch yourself fail every day - over, and over, and over - it is a special kind of pain. Not necessarily a panic-inducing fear, or a burdening grief, or anything extreme... it's just a subtle but constant ache. But God is good, and He always will be, and He can reach into the darkest of hearts and fill them with sunshine.