Submitted by Heather Jones on Sun, 01/06/2019 - 02:32

i'm sorry that i'm angry.
You've done nothing
but be Yourself -
a righteous, holy God.

the fact that i am angry at You
for my own sinfulness
simply fuels my raging fire
against myself.

truly, i'm angry at myself.
i'm angry that i fail so much,
that i could never be
as good as You are
to me.

i'm sorry that i'm weak.
there is nothing i can do.
i am relying on Your goodness
to keep me from burning away.

please hold onto me.

Author's age when written


I can’t even count how many times I’ve prayed words much like these lately. You always manage to express these thoughts and feelings so beautifully!

I don’t thrive off of chaos: chaos thrives off of me.

I can so relate to this, Heather. You did a good job capturing these feelings.

“You are doing something great with your life—when you are doing all the small things with His great love.” - Ann Voskamp

This is also relatable for me! And, like Grace already said, you captured the feelings of these emotions well!

Just something to encourage you Heather:

Romans 5:5 "And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

C.S. Lewis ~ "He died not for men, but for each man. If each man had been the only man made, He would have done no less."

thank you all so much!! i was actually having second thoughts about publishing because it’s such a personal topic for me, but i’m glad it resonated with you all <3 y’all are the greatest (:

@damaris - I e-mailed you (: idk if you check it much so just wanted to let you know <3
@joy Oh that is such a great verse! Thank you!!

“planting seeds inevitably changes my feelings about rain.” —luci shaw.
psalm 84:10 esv.