Why It's So Hard To Write

Submitted by Libby on Sun, 02/11/2018 - 05:57

I’m an introvert.
I get peopled out.
I need time to recharge.

I’m naturally shy.
I don’t like talking to
people I
don’t know.
I hate it when they
don’t say
it forces me to talk.

I’m prideful.
I want to be the best.
I want to excel
at whatever I do.
I want people’s good opinion.
So I hide the real me.

I’m judgmental.
I compare others with myself.
I compare myself with others.
And either way,
someone ends up looking
like a fool
in my mind—
it’s me or them.

I’m a procrastinator.
I have goals that I
never accomplish.
I fail at being
on time.
I wait until the last minute
to finish a project.
And sometimes
It’s too late.

All of this
affects my writing,
what I say,
what I think,
the soul behind my stories.
I find it hard to write
the truth;
I’m afraid
of being judged by you.
Or I don’t want you
to see
my faults.
Or it's just that
I have another

But I know
the Lord has forgiven me.
He’s set me free
from the burden
of sin.
He’s made me new.
I’m no longer
what I used to be.
I’m covered
in his blood.

So whatever I write,
I will write to his glory,
I will write because I know
I am forgiven,
and made clean.

Author's age when written


Wow. I'm not normally a huge fan of free verse (as Robert Frost said, it's a bit like playing tennis with the net down), but this was amazing. It flowed really well, expressed an idea to term, and was quite honest. Also, I can relate 100\% to the central idea; it was like reading a description of myself. Job well done!

"Come, travel with me in dreams far, far beyond the range of the possible and the known." ~Charles Baudelaire

Very well said, Libby! None of us are perfect, but when we turn our focus off of ourselves and onto God and who He is and what He has done for us, that is when the best things come through. Truly, He is the best. Great job!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart

Thank you for sharing this Libby! I really enjoyed it! To be honest I'm a lot like what you were describing and often I feel like I'm the only one who fails at many things. The enemy always likes to tell us that we are a failure and that we are the only one that fails at a certain thing or at many things. But we're not. We all fail. But as you said God has forgiven us and His grace and mercy never fails! Our sins are paid for and His mercies are new every morning! And we can take joy and comfort in that! Thank you again for sharing this!

C.S. Lewis ~ "He died not for men, but for each man. If each man had been the only man made, He would have done no less."