I am Ashamed to Say the Least

Submitted by Maddi on Wed, 07/31/2013 - 04:54

Dear Apricot Pie,

I am ashamed.


I would call myself a writer but I haven’t written anything for months. I am ashamed to say the least.


I want to apologize for being absent. I know I'm not obliged too, but I want to anyway.

Yes, of course I have my excuses. My brother broke his leg badly; I've been BUSY with school and organising homeschool activities.

But what’s really important is that I missed everyone on here. There had been some nights where I was lying back in bed, and then suddenly thinking about Homey’s stories, or Little Women’s poems, or Lucy Anne’s great comments, and Benjamin’s excellent essays…the list goes on and on.

I have some things to admit: I actually enjoyed not writing. I enjoyed not having to worry over what my character was to do next. It was great.

But after a couple of months, I had to be honest with myself. I missed writing. I missed Apricot Pie hugely, and the lovely community here. But I kept putting it off again and again.

A few weeks ago I started writing again. It was just a little at a time. Sometimes only a few sentences, sometimes a whole page. I enjoyed it thoroughly. And all the while, I had AP in the back of my mind.

I want to thank each and every one of you on here.

Each of you have been an inspiration to me; each of you. Apricot Pie has motivated me to write, and I wouldn't have written as much as I have today without you there.

So thankyou, Apricot Pie. I have met so many amazing fellow writers who help and critique my writing.

Special thanks to Megan who always comments and critiques my writing, and more importantly prays for me, even when I haven’t asked her too.

Maddi xx

P.S. When I finish school, I am planning to visit overseas. America is on my list. I would love to visit you all.

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Aww, Maddi! I don't know what to laugh or whatever! You are so sweet to say what you said. :)
WELCOME BACK TO APRICOTPIE!!!!!!!!! I truly did miss you.
I'm so, so glad I mussed up the bravery to email you last week even though we hadn't talked in months and months!! :)
P.S. Sorry about those exclamation marks. They're the only thing I have to describe my happiness.

"It is not the length of life, but the depth of life." Ralph Waldo Emerson


I was wondering where you were. :) So glad to have you back, Maddi! Thank you for the shoutout. :)

I understand what you mean when you say it feels good to not write sometimes. We all need a break occasionally.

Anyway, thank yoooooou!
-Homey :D

You guys don't know how elated I was to see comments!! I love comments!! And yes, I'm glad I'm back too....I have heaps of reading and commenting to do! I missed you both as well. Megan, don't worry about the exclamation marks. :)
Thanks Homey!

Goodbye? Oh no, please. Can’t we just go back to page one and start all over again?” – Winnie The Pooh

I am so glad you're back! I also noticed you were absent, and I missed you allot! Also, if you have time, then read my story. I've written the first four chapters, and still have many to write. And also the poem that is a companion to my story. I'd love to hear what you think of them. Anyways, soooo happy you're back, and can't wait to see what you post next.

"Even if the sun crashes into earth, I won't let go, I won't let go. I can be your light, stay with me tonight, I won't let go, I won't let go."

Welcome back. I was sort of wondering where you had been, and I'm glad your back.
Don't feel bad about not writing, I don't think I've published anything since you left. With me its more of being a perfectionist, and not liking anything that I write, because it's not perfect. And there is always the factor of never having time. Well, may both of us write more soon!

"My greatest wish for my writing is that it would point you to the Savior."

Arthur, even if you are a perfectionist, you should still post what you write. If you never post, no one can help you with your mistakes. Besides, you're the editor and should set the example. Two major and undeniable reasons you must write...and publish. Heheheh. :)

"It is not the length of life, but the depth of life." Ralph Waldo Emerson

I'm glad you're back!! I understand taking a break-I know that I need one sometimes.

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

I just remembered that my friend who checks AP alot, asked me to comment for her. She said that she would like me to tell you that she is REALLY glad that you're back. Talk to you later, Megan

"It is not the length of life, but the depth of life." Ralph Waldo Emerson

I missed you. :) I'm so glad you're back!! It's funny; everytime I fall away from writing, I never feel quite right until I start up again. Anyway, can't wait to see new stuff from you!

The most astonishing thing about miracles is that they happen.
-G. K. Chesterton

Thank you! Actually, I have posted a poem called Just Forget to Breath. Nobody's read it yet. :)

And thanks Megan. :)

Goodbye? Oh no, please. Can’t we just go back to page one and start all over again?” – Winnie The Pooh